When I first started blogging, I felt so much creative freedom. For so long, I was boxed in professionally– often told what I would write about, produce videos on, and so on. Blogging felt like breathing and because of that, I often shared more thoughtful, introspective posts in addition to design and DIY. I had kind of gotten away from that because although my career choices have always been quite public, I am by nature pretty private. I’m used to sharing others’ stories, not my own, and I’ve always had a hard time sharing a lot of personal information.
I’ve had several requests from readers to get back to that thoughtful writing. I too miss that aspect of this blog. After thinking about the best way to go about it, I’ve decided to dedicate Fridays to a new series I’m called “written withHEART.” Every Friday I’ll get a little deeper– whatever I have on my mind, what is inspiring me, and so on. Whatever the topic, you can be sure it will be literally, written with heart.
I can’t thank you enough for your kind and supportive responses to our exciting news that we are expecting baby Stagg #2. As with my pregnancy with Ruby, I was really apprehensive about shouting it from the rooftops. The truth is, pregnancy is pretty terrifying for me. I’ve never really been that great at getting– or staying– pregnant. My pregnancies are also high risk due to a clotting factor in my blood so I give myself twice daily injections and have really frequent checkups. I felt like I was on pins and needles for my entire pregnancy with Ruby and I’m trying to just relax a little with this one.
There’s something about making the news public that is both freeing and scary at the same time. Who wants to tell everyone then have to un-tell everyone if something goes wrong? Adding to my fears, two of my dear friends just lost their pregnancies– one due at almost the exact time as me and another at 24 weeks. My heart is breaking for them. But as one of them so wisely told me, if anything happens you need to share the sad times too because you’re not alone. The love and support always help to get you through the rough times. And you never know who else is going through the same thing.
All of you are a part of that love and support I feel. I’m so touched by all of you cheering me on in every aspect of my life whether it’s a brave new career move, a daring DIY, or expanding our little family. Creating a new life is such a miracle and I’m so grateful my body is healthy and strong enough to serve as a vessel for bringing a new life into the world.
I can’t wait to meet this little person, to watch Jon become a father again and Ruby a big sister. What a blessing it all is.
I hope you’ll all forgive me for every missed email, every pregnancy brain memory lapse, and a few moments of quiet at times on here. I’m sick sick sick and praying it eases soon. It never did with Ruby so I’m crossing my fingers for a smooth second trimester!
Hope you have a wonderful weekend!
so wonderful for you to share your fears. I just had my first little one in Jan of this year and its such a blessing to be the vessel, but so scary because you instantly love that person, even before you meet him or her. I am looking forward to this series, as I do with your posts in general:) Feel better soon.
Oh, Jen, my heart and thoughts will be with you during this time. I hope all goes well and that you don’t feel too sick for too much longer! You are amazing especially considering how busy you during your pregnancy! I could barely get out of bed! You go girl!! Thank you for sharing your thoughts!
Oh, I am all too familiar with 9 month morning sickness (more like all day sickness). I sincerely hope it eases for you!
Focus on you and the baby. That’s what’s important, we can wait, accept pregnancy brain and a hint of I’m too damn tired to blog. 🙂 take care of you!
I’m sorry that you are feeling sick. It’s the worst during pregnancy. My brother’s wife has the same thing and needs to inject herself twice daily, so I know what you are going through and I wish you the very best and hope you are feeling better soon.
Love a series that is close to your heart and that has meaning. Not everything needs to be pinable at all times 🙂
I feel your pain (literally) regarding the daily injections for clotting. I do a single injection of Lovenox daily and it’s my least favorite part of being pregnant. But it is worth it in the end. Your friend’s advice about sharing the bad along with the good is very wise. I shared about a miscarriage I had earlier this year and I was shocked at how much support I received. I hope this pregnancy goes well.